‘Jersey Shore’ Star Angelina Pivarnick Reveals Miscarriage “Almost Killed” Her: “It’s Still Tough To This Day”

Angelina Pivarnick is opening up about her heartbreaking miscarriage, which was revealed in tonight’s episode of Jersey Shore Family Vacation.

In the early episodes of the MTV show’s ninth and final season, Pivarnick took a pregnancy test at a birthday party for Mike “The Situation” Sorrentino‘s son. After several more tests and a visit to the doctor, Pivarnick confirmed to Sammi “Sweetheart” Giancola—who was pregnant with her 9-month-old son, Vincent, at the time—that she was, indeed, pregnant.

However, Pivarnick’s initial excitement quickly turned to worry over the next couple of episodes, with the Jersey Shore veteran revealing to Giancola that she was spotting. In tonight’s episode, Pivarnick sadly confirmed that she had miscarried her baby two-and-a-half months into her pregnancy.

“It was very, very horrible,” Pivarnick told DECIDER when she stopped by our Midtown Manhattan studio back in May.

“It’s still tough to this day,” she continued. “It doesn’t get better. It doesn’t get easier. Especially at my age. Obviously, it still hurts, no matter what age you are. But when you’re turning 40 and you wanted that child so badly and then you don’t have it anymore, it’s a really bad, bad situation.”

While Pivarnick’s roommates/Jersey Shore Family Vacation co-stars had their suspicions, the only one who actually knew Pivarnick was pregnant was Giancola. Per Pivarnick, she wasn’t filming “too much” with her castmates, who were vacationing in Boston when her miscarriage happened, because she was “so sick in bed.” The reality star also shared that she suffered other “traumatic” complications after she lost the baby.

“I had a really bad blood clot that almost killed me after the fact of everything,” she said.

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Despite what she was going through, Pivarnick said she eventually returned to filming in hopes that her story could help someone else going through something similar.

“The reason why I actually shared it — eventually I came back to filming — [was because] I was like, ‘This could help somebody else. Let me do it. Let me let me speak about it,'” she said.

Jersey Shore Family Vacation airs Thursday nights at 8 p.m. ET/PT on MTV.